Got a bit of a shock at the market. Whilst picking up a salad for me, and kibble for the fluffy one, and who should appear? I mean, it is a small place and I guess I’ll just have to get used to seeing that blue.eyed.boy from time to time. Not 100% certain he saw me, but I’m 99.9% sure. Due to the look on … Continue reading Me And The Moon And The Sun
Anticipation pounding in my chest. Butterfly nerves fluttering, as I walked in with this rare desire I’ve only read about in books or romantic comedies. You know, the pounding heart, hand shaking sort of desire. The sort of desire that comes forth outa some hidden place, that take one unawares. And so I ventured down, again, to blue.eyed.mans. We played horseshoes in the shade, out … Continue reading Why I Love Emotionally Unavailable Men
It had been well over 9 months, the last time I saw him. And then he bikes passed me on the street, we looked back at the same time – that blue.eyed.man and I. As we shared that one brief glimpse, his expression vague, now – was it amusement? Or surprise? Then a couple of weeks ago, as I came upon the soup aisle, there … Continue reading Thinking About Those People You Shouldn’t Be Thinking About
It’s been this on again, off again, thang, for about two years now. It’s on again, although I’m not exactly sure why, but there ya go Ok, so I’ve been kvetching with a fellow widow I met through my Earth Angel. We’ve plied the depths, of the men we’ve dated, past and present, and the role we both played in our spouses deaths, as caregivers. … Continue reading With This Ring I Thee…
Well, how bout that, I suppose I will just have to sit here and watch these clouds drift by on my own. Plans fell through, and he has to work. That other me would have been sad. He’s threatened to come before, so I half expected it. Still though, point being, I’m OK with it. Actually, perhaps releaved, a little. Perhaps old lovers should stay … Continue reading when cancelling isn’t necessarily a bad thing
I stand there sometimes, you know, and just watch the world go by. I was just doing that now. Watching the cars go in and out of the parking lot next door. Its a bank, and being a Friday, must be payday for some, like me. Was a good week, atleast almost. It began fine, and up until Wednesday night I would have probably chocked … Continue reading This & That
And you know what Mom? Wishes do come true. Whilst I was tidying up outside, and looking damn hot in my red short sleeve sweater shirt and culottes, well who bicycles past my little secret garden? Twiddle-dee, and twiddle-dumn…otherwise known as mystery.texter & and mr.blue.eyes. The whole thing happened so perfect, I swear, I couldn’t have scripted it better, it was like something I would … Continue reading Fall Down Go Boom
Ok Mom, I confess, I had to say goodbye. The last time we said it, er, typed it, it was angry. This time, I suppose I wanted this final one, well, to be a finale. Take a graceful bow to the audience, and take my leave, stage left. So I texted him “I still think of you”. When I got home after work that day, … Continue reading I Wanna Be Loved Like…
Curiosity got the better of me, and I admit I did pop in for a peek into that dating site I joined. Certainly there are attractive men who’ve shown interest, yet meh. I’m not sure yet I am a dating site kinda gal. I have learned some lessons the last few months Mom though, one of them being that dating sites are like standing in … Continue reading Cuddling Up With Myself
So, back and forth, back and forth, texting that guy from the dating site all this week. Met up 3 times since Monday, and actually last night went out to dinner here in the village. We stayed around for the band, and caught the first few songs, and booked it back here for tea and talk. Talked about everything under the sun till 1AM, then … Continue reading Dating Jekyll and Hyde
Well, this probably should not come as a surprise, I won’t go into the details, but Mr.Blue.Eyes bakes. He actually made goodies for Christmas Eve, which he spent with his nephew and his grown kids. He is not at all what he appears to be. Not even close. He really is a multi-layered entity, and he intrigues me… today even more. This morn as I … Continue reading And The Next Day Comes Along
Now the dog got a walk, the dishes got done, and groceries too. I had a good dinner, and the kitchen looks rather tidy. Bit tired, but it was a successful weekend, all in all. Short week ahead, so feeling rather punky this morn in anticipation. I got all my shopping done finally, and, I got it mostly done right here in the village. Just … Continue reading Where I Live And Breath
“What do you do when the one person you want comfort from the most is the one who caused your pain? How can I want so desperately for him to wrap me up in his arms but also want so much for him to leave me alone.” ― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him Mom, soon, soon it will be all but a memory, and … Continue reading Twas A Fine Romance
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